- Infatuation ..

Monday, March 20, 2006

well, recently some bull shit juz came out, and i realised how shitty i m as a friend .. i used 2 tink i knew how to settle my frends problems .. i used to tink that i can maintain the friendship between all my friends .. i used to tink i bring joy in my friends life by making them laugh .. i used to tink no matter how serious the problems between my frends, everything will eventually work out .. well, guess wat? i juz found out that none of those stuff are true at all .. after going thru da same stuff over again .. i'm tired of being the middleman, tired of being the neutral party .. i'm tired of always being da one to patch things up for my frends .. but it's juz my character to be dat neutral party .. u cant expect me to change my character overnite .. and becuz of this characteristic of mine, i'm always torn between sides .. there's always misunderstandings abt me .. always caught in da cross fire .. end up getting hurt myself too .. i'm always there 4 y'all(to some ppl only) .. there to hear ur probs, cheer y'all up and stuff .. best of all, pray 4 y'all .. tried my best to help y'all to da best of my abilities .. but did y'all noe dat i've got MY OWN problems to deal wif too? i too need someone to be there 4 me .. standing by me .. encouraging me too like how i encouraged y'all .. but where were y'all man? like i said, this applies to some of my frends out there .. some of y'all will be most likely be pissed after reading dis entry .. yah .. i noe .. like i said i suck as a friend .. most likely will be losing some of my good friends out there soon .. i hate to c y'all like dis .. y cant we all juz be frends again .. good friends again like old times? haiz ..

Unkie @ 10:47 PM

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